For SuM ReaS0N..i feel like i've beeN..

Scadalous/ Tuesday, January 30

and it juz sux..

Emo Overrulling...

Nth's Wrong with me.. everything's juz wrong..

i do wad i want..wad i like..and what i deem rite..

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Scadalous/ Tuesday, January 2

FiNallyyy...miss me riteeee...ok...i'm back to crap..!!!! bLeaHhh...

hMmmmm...ever since my last postt...i've been thru such thrills and fun...hahahaha

incase u dunnoe...i went to bangkok..with my love and my irritating but cute sis..5 daes 4 nites had been such fun thereee...[=..made me love my love even moreee...i love u Xuan Feng..tiL BiTs and Piecess..til..the stars are jealous..tiL..the dae u turn into a pig..i'll still love u..i promiseee...[=..

christmas dinner was kinda grosss...sad to saee..sakura opp cineleisure SUX to the coree..and if u evr vist dere after reading this post..u're a damn idiot..i repeat..PLZ DUN GO DEREee..

countdown wass...WOOOOoOPpp...sUperb's the word...first...met peiyi and steph at cityhall fer lunch...den eve fer sum flowerss....den..headed down to hype it up comp...congrats 'in da hse'..and von's got dope hair..ahahahaa..(cuz i did it..together with peiyi and steph..)...dar's grp got merit..not too badd..hahaha..except fer the sad fact tht...7 of them gotta share a $500 capitol voucher......SOOOoooooo...TREAT'S ON SWEEEETTTIEeee....(flashes my sweeties smile..) hEeeHEeeee...

dEeenn....headed down to yuxin's placeee aft thatt..which..EVERYONEEE from ppl we knoe til dunnoe got dunk into the pool upon countdown..and i was SWING IN by sum unknown ppl together with pei yi...hahahhaa...we held on to our dear lifee...butt stilll....no help....[=.....and xiang wasssss.......worse than a pig..hahaa..insist dun let us dunk his loveey jaei..hahahahaaaa.....but still..it was super fun.....thanks to yu xin..[=.. but aft sum of us went off..both...von and wq jump into the pool themselves..DRUNK obviously..LOLXxx...i hope everyone had fun...[=.....

til den..sch's open tmr......ok...let's hug each other and sob togetherr...*soBxx*...
and Best of luck everyone fer ur results...[= u reap wad u sow..so if u didn't study..dun complain..if u studied...try harder...lolxxx...*riteee*..

and i haf a lil secret to share before i end noww........
my darling's feeding me black forest cake and coffee cake...
hahaa..dun jealousss....Nitee!!! bYEeeBYEeee

I LOVE U XUAN FENG

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Scadalous/ Sunday, December 10

First of all..HAPPIEEEee 19th BIRTHDAE TRACY WAN..
though u're alwaes the last to turn older..almost when the yr's almost up..we still love yaa..

thinkin back..i miss the times we used to write each other 7 to 8 postcards EVERYDAEEe although we see each other EVERY SINGLE DAEee!! i miss the times kim..adel and i would meet at boonlay fer sch everydae picking u up at clem bus stop..i miss the PMS daes..the Girls' Brigade daee..the hanging outs..and simply the warmness u guys could offer..

but i guess..things change..cuz we're constantly pushed to move on..many things u dun ever wans an end..had been forced into beautiful memories u nv wanted to haf..sumtimes yes..u realli wan them as they used to be..but sumtimes..let's admit..we tot we can do without turnin ur vision back..as u move on life's journey..everything slowly becums the future..not yesterdaee..sumtimes u stop..and wants to seek the comfort u once had..but u struggle in findin them now..

it's not easy i guess..to juz be u or urself..it's not easy being tracy..it's not easy being med..it's not easy being kim..it's not easy being rino..it's not easy being sam..it's not easy being min..it's not easy being yen..it's not easy being xf..and it's definitely not easy being ME..i dun understand how each and every of u is living ur life..and let's be fair..U DUN UNDERSTAND MY LIFE TOO..sumtimes u think ur problem is the biggest..and ur life is the worse..tt's becuz u haven met one tt's worse than urs..u think u're all cooped up with work and assignment..and u tink u haf tonnes of them..but dun think NO ONE CAN EVER HAF LESSER THAN URS..if u think u're a busy person and yet u can sqeeze out time..haf u ever thot sumone has felt that 24 hrs a dae is nv enuff fer 2 whole yr already?

ok..if i think i'm living my life to the FULLEST of wad GOD could grant outta 24 hrs..i may be wrong..sumone might be like me..and even using my sleeping hrs to work on stuffs..and how do we measure..*childish*..i mean..who cares who has more things to do..or is more busy..u juz haf to go with the heart..

u dun feel it..yet u wanna go ahead with it and feel weird doing it..u wish to go..but u haf other things in hand..u wish to go again..but u will juz feel outta placee..buts buts butts..and they equate selfish?? fine if tt's ur deduction..u haf the final sae to ur OWN thinking which u so conveniently label it as unselfish thinking urself..

and how well do u reckon u noe me now..or rather how well do u think u can noe a person when u see the person at most 4 times a yr..? and u expect..and demand..neglectin other FACTS..

i'm not sayin she no longer needs us..but let's juz be frank here..QTMK- had been overidden..almost rather long ago if u had been asleep fer quite a while..and if u had juz woken up aft abt 1 yr of slp..u would haf noticed this..and the muz hafs are no long QMK fer T..it's BKTG now..no offence..but u noe i'm frank..

if forcing time out on special occasions is wad u deem fit as EFFORT..i beg to differ..EFFORT is all time round..not juz on special occasions..ever heard of the phrase..'everydae is Valentine's dae when i'm with u'...u dun juz purposely love that person more simply bcuz it's Vdae..so are u implyin that the other daes were almost rather fake den? no it's not wad u meant..but it's ur concept..

if QTMK is wad's on ur mind..and it noe it's a special occasion fer T..but by using T's special occasion to hit and hurt another..u think it's an effort to put QTMK together? it's quite non sensicaL..one hand u're smashin one corner outta the 4..the other hand..u're smashing the opposite corner urself..and u blame me fer destroying this nice picture..

ruined or not..u decide..and reflect urself..if wad u DID and SAID to me was ritee..but ultimately i noee..u will still think i'm at fault..and u haf none..it's normal..the kinship is long gone anywae..mutual understanding had been long forgotten anywae..trust had been thrown awaee..blames had been makin it's wae to us..coloured lens and perception is wad we possessed now..assumption is QTMK's new found friend..

if u think by lashin out..u feel better..go ahead..cuz i do...and maybe tt's wad i'm doin now..i'm not at all pissed..realli..cuz dere's no much pt gettting pissed at ppl u actualli love..i'm juz being realli frank..cuz tt's how i wanna be with u guys..if u can't take this..u're not ready fer reality..

a bond takes a process..not once in a while thing..u can't demand comfort..u haf to build the comfort zone..if it was in the past..it's realli no doubt dere's no one ANY of us wun be dere fer ANY occasions..but it's realli different now..

i dun wanna tok abt it anymoree...
leave me alone anywae..
i'll be fine..though ur blame kinda hurt quite bad..
i dunnoe how we are now..
or where we each stand in each other's heart..

dun put one down juz to bring the other up..it'll nv work this wae..

i got no more to saee...

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Scadalous/ Friday, December 8

someone..

there's this girl..used to be sumone special..still is in a wae or 2...though we seldom speak nowww...hope u're finee...actualli i noeee u're happieee...hehehehee..[=..and tt's enuff..i miss ya arieLx.C

den there's this other person..who keeps everything to herself/himself..(or let's juz call herself...)..and most of the time..this person appears happiee and fun..but seem realli broken insidee..sumtimes i wished u would sharee..but i noe u wun..and i nv dreamt u would to mee..but it's ok..cuz not tt it matters even if i noe a not..

juz wanna take this sumone out of bitterness..and sumtimes i wonder..wad could it bee..tt's bothering u sinceee...

u've touched me..in many waes or 2..big or small..and i realli appreciate that..

stay strong juz fer who u are..and how God wants u to be..for everything happens fer a reason..if ur misery has to be a reason in the good deed for others..u're not miserable..u're an example of goodwill..*sMileSx*..God loves this children..[=

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Scadalous/ Tuesday, December 5

wOOooooo...Common test's coming......hmMmmmm...Did sumone juzzzz...mention......COMMON TESTTTT!!!!

i can senseee..all u panic ppL!! bLeahHH!!!

Butter factory todaeee...NRA's big outing i guess..booked the whole club...BUT BUTTt but the most wonderful thing iss..I CAN'T MAKE IT!! *huMMmPH*...cuzz cuzzz..as usuall..too last min..already have plan fer todaeee...which is my work's bbq and chalet..already promised..already paid..so..how to sae no last min..?? soBxx..it's ok..anywhere..is fineee..[=

i'm a happiee girl..besides losing much company from QTMK..miss them..realli..and tracy's bdae is cominggg.....!!! [=..lalallalaaa..

i'm happieee..cuz..

1) i'm catching up with my EM3A....[MATH!!!]

2) French is fun!!

3) Dog Cafe for innovative project is FUN!!

4) i've got crappy good colleagues and classmates

5) i've got lovely xuan feng to constantly drive me insanee..

6) cuz i start speaking to ppl i wanna tok to again..[= [=..

7) cuz i'm going bangkok with loving xuan feng and crazy stella...

8) cuz i am looking forward for a dog!!!

9) cuz dance have started all again

10) cuzz...juz cuzzz..life is beautifuL with ppl i love around!!

stay happieee ppL...stay out of trouble zoneeee!!

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Scadalous/ Wednesday, November 29

u noe i didn't feel good doin that..u noe u shouldn't haf brought ur personal life against EVERYONE else..u should noe there is a right time fer everything...

i stood up..cuz i dun wan u to mix all ur life up..u ever said..dance is ur everything..and even if onli a few ppl turn up.. u will still go fer dance...so wad's the big difference this time??

i understand..i totally do..it's not like i dun feel pissed sumtimes when one of us is called back to dance when they're juz slacking around when i can spend more time with him..but..tt's PERSONAL LIFE..rant it to each other..not ur fellow dancers...

ok..edit..u didn't rant..but it was juz realli not right..if u still thinku did nth wrong..think again..dere's no right or wrong..it's sad we haf to cum to this stage..but it's ok..ppl change anywae..

i'm sry if i hurt u..but ur change in character and attitude hurt those who love u even more...it's ur life..and i noe u've sank in it..but it's no excuse to disallow u to differentiate right from wrong..u noe i'm nv against u..nv wan to be....

nv..

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Scadalous/ Saturday, November 25

NRA AGM..and dance's gonna start soon...!!!! heheheeeee...[=...

saw the supposedly 'noob' dance by nra jrs and addictors todaeee..hahaa...amazin how they all grew...hopefully we're taking aft them...[=..haha..now think back..CCA FIESTA!!!!! whahahahaaa...we also quite noob la hOrr...bleah...[=...

I LOVE RINO..EVELYN..NEXA..PEYCHEE...all the couples who took fotos together [lolx]..and all enthu and nicee freshiess...[=...

haf fun..peacee..

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